…sigh

Closure. Normally you need closure over an unpleasant experience. But for me now, its closure over the past 4-5months. It feels like an end of an era, English have gone home, Aussies have departed on their separate adventures, Americano’s have disappeared back to their respective families and soon, I too will be departing the great state of Colorado for more fun and adventures.

I have been taken under by a cold over the last couple of weeks and with finals and last minute assignments and a bunch of people to say goodbye to I didn’t have much time left in it for anything else but sleep. Actually, thats not quite true as I did find time to snowboard – which, with my speed improving along with my abilities, is becoming more and more fun.

And so now, in the serenity of my own company, and with nothing beckoning but an airport waiting lounge and a 2hr plane flight I feel very quite ready for the change of pace and company when I meet up with A&J this evening. I’m not sure how it will play out exactly, not sure how the energy within will reveal itself during the next 3-4 weeks but at the moment I’m just happy its there. So, I have no expectations over the next few weeks other than the will to enjoy it, relax, and soak up the friendships, American people and countryside.

… some reflection?

Now, thinking over the past 4months its hard to see where I came from and where I am now and what all went on in between. And I won’t hide the fact that I’ve got to know more women here as friends than I have guys, which I think has always been easier for me to do. I have done more outdoor activities than I have in the past few years combined, I have done more drinking than I have in the past few years combined and I have made more friends than I have in the past 10 years combined.

But what does this tell me? Actually it might be an opportune moment here to say that anyone who knows me and wants to offer some outside perspective on this I’d love to hear it – if you want to give it. I have learned a few things from this, some I’ll recognise and some will go unnoticed. And I suppose all of life is a growing experience anyway so maybe this is not that bigger deal. One thing I do think though is that this has been a making-up-for-lost-time kinda experience. So, it is what I wished I had the chance to experience years ago – something I needed to experience and get out of my system before I could move on to bigger and better things. I’m not sure if the wrest of my time here will just be an extension of that or if it will now change to a new phase, where I’ll search for new interests, but I guess time will tell. This may sound obvious, but life seems to about doing the things, achieving the things that you’ve always wanted to (no matter how lame), and through that you grow, and through that you realise new things you want to achieve, and hence – hopefully – grow more.

Well, I think I’ve come to the end of my time here – at the Wild Boar at least anyway. Go home, lunch, finish packing, clean, and then I must head off… there’s always more adventures to be had!

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